Here's another installment of Ellie's (found) diary. (The first installment, and the description of this packet of found materials, is here.)
This section continues the entry for 1 - 8 - 75.
I just talked to Mario. He says he's cutting down on drinking & weed, (only on weekends) Then, he turns around & goes to a basketball game w/Bob, Rodell, & Dinelli, to get high. He says, "I'm not goin to buy anymore lids." But he's gonna go & leech weed off everyone else. I told him. He goes - "why not everyone's been doin it to me for 2 years." How fucked huh. I feel sorry for Patty cuz of Darrells drinking problem. Mario drinks too much too. I'm crying my eyes out right now. Its funny how I was in such a good mood about 1/2 hr. ago.Mario's saving his money for a haircut. SHIT! He's gonna look like a queer w/a haircut. I'm gonna cry when I see it. I know it. Just like I am now. Look how small I'm writing. I'll need a magnifying glass to read it over. I'm so down. Everytime I finish writing on here, I get in a shitty mood. I've always been pretty good at sorting my feelings, so see try this minor problem - lets see - its probly cuz Im afraid or somethin. I don't wanna wright anymore. Oh shit - stop kidding yourself ass - you know deep inside you'll never marry Mario. You'll split up sooner or later, he'll leave you & you'll both find someone else. It's just that I WANT to marry him so bad. I guess I'm subconsciously (ooh, big word) counting on it. I've got to make myself stop, cuz I'll just get hurt. But actually, it's 2 late for that. I know damn well if he split right now I'd fall to pieces. That's one thing he'll never worry about - he's not that way. Not a fuckin sap. He don't let himself go (fall in love to be exact.) That's what fucks you up, Ellie. Not that he wouldn't be bothered, but I don't think it would effect him that much.
UPDATE: One thing I forgot to mention is that across the top of the first surviving page, Ellie has written: "JERRY GARCIA & MARIO GENTILE -> HA HA HA HA HA HA."
Posted by Dr. Frank at April 11, 2005 05:15 PM | TrackBackWhen you were 15 did you ever wonder what the girls your age filled their diaries with? From what I've seen of this and what I saw of mine and my friends diaries growing up, they're all pretty similar.
Posted by: Amy 80 at April 11, 2005 05:46 PMI hope she marries Mario; that'll make her happy. He sounds like a really special guy.
Posted by: josh at April 11, 2005 08:12 PMSince when is "subconsciously" a BIG word?
I agree w/ Josh. Mario sounds dreamy.
I don't think I've mentioned lately how pathetic humanity is. Oh, wait a minute, I just did!
Posted by: Zaphod at April 13, 2005 04:22 PM