Dr. Frank's What's-it

After Johnny Winter

And now it's time for another installment of Ellie's found diary. (Previous entries: part 1; part 2; part 3; part 4.)

The story so far: Ellie's relationship with Mario has been heading for rough waters, an approaching storm always just on the horizon. She is in a constant state of anxiety, not knowing when the storm will break, but certain that when it breaks, it will be a big one that will leave the leaky, creaky, sinking relationship broken on the rocks at last. Not even her dreams of stardom on the stage can distract her from the sense of impending doom, not for long anyway. All she has is rock and roll, and her love for Mario, which has remained strong, though it has certainly been tested. When Mario reveals his plan, however, it turns out to be the last thing she expected....

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You know what happened? Remember 2 days ago, when I said Mario wanted to break up pretty soon? Well that same night, I went over to his house, & we had a big discussion about it. At first I put up a big argument. But then I thought about it, & I wanted break up w/ him right then. But he said no, it wasn't the right time.

What a fucker he is. He's savin it for after Johnny Winter. He wants to see Johnny w/me, then about 2 or 3 weeks after that, LATER. He wants it where he can always be friends, no hard feelings. & above all he don't wanna hurt me. But there's no way he can avoid it. I love him so much. But if he thinks I'm gonna spend the rest of my days waiting for his ass, he's crazy. He said he wants it where he can have another chance. I said no, but then I blew it and & said he'd always have a chance to get me back. But I've been thinkin, and I'm gonna tell him no, cuz he'll just do the same thing again. I'm so fucking confused. I don't know what to do.

I can't stand it I was gonna call it quits last night, but I decided to wait till Tuesday night. (No school Wed.) But Last night I was cold to him (at first) I think he's having 2nd thots, cuz he was so nice & loving to me last night. We went Roller Skating w/Patty & Darrell, Bob, Larry, Frank, Rodell, Dulay, George, etc.