May 15, 2005

Rock N Roll Suicide

Here's another snip of Ellie's found diary, covering January 9th and 10th of 1975. (The "74" in the first entry is her error.)

When we last looked in on Ellie, on January 8th, she was consumed with anxiety over her relationship with Mario, though she referred to him as "Luigi" for some reason. A couple of days later, it appears that her fears were justified. Somehow, I don't see her marrying Mario after all.

(Previous entries are here: part 1; part 2; and part 3.)

(1 - 9 - 74)

Connection - Stones - Rock N Roll Suicide. I wish I could sell my soul for Rock N Roll.


(1 - 10 - 75)

Guess what. I just talked to Mario & he said he wants to break up pretty soon. See!? didn't I tell you he'd wanna split? I'm so fuckin scared. I'm super-down. I wanna cry, but nothing'll come out. How fucked. He thinks after about a yr. we'll be fighting alot, & it'll just be the same old thing. I don't wanna break up with him. My heart is pounding so hard. I thot about doing it to him 1st, but I know I just can't. I know now that I love him for sure. We've been together 7 mos. & 8 days.

Something else happened today, only this is good: I found this ad in the paper. for an audition in a musical review/play. & guess what? I'm auditioning!! I'm so fuckin nervous. In can't wait. This could be my BIG chance... but I'm not really counting on a part. I'm gonna sing "Dream a little Dream of Me"! & "You're Nobody Till Somebody Loves You". Oh God. I'm so nervous. Everything is comin down on me at once. You watch, I'll either fuck up, or I'll get a part. If I get a part I just go beserk (for sure.) What am I gonna do.


The entry that follows this is one of my favorites, perhaps my favorite piece of found writing I've ever encountered, so stay tuned...

Posted by Dr. Frank at May 15, 2005 03:59 PM | TrackBack
Comments

enthralling .. i hope she makes it!

Posted by: lucky409 at May 16, 2005 12:30 AM

She gets hit by a truck.

Posted by: Zaphod at May 16, 2005 11:00 AM

Pretty good teaser. Could this be how Ellie first got her start in show business?

Posted by: josh at May 16, 2005 01:09 PM